Today's the first time i showed my temper to people.. okay! i know it's nt a good thing but seriously they simply pissed me off totally!! like wtf??? i know it's not their hse.. and they dun own it, but the least courtesy they could do was to ensure that everything was neat and tidy and dust free. Geez, i almost faint and died when i stepped into the house.

Ashes everywhere, the air was stale and stuffy. How can they even breathe??? So i got so fed-up, i took up the broom stick and started sweeping the house.. Im a guest yet i have to keep their house clean for them??? *grrr*

I was banging away things cuz i felt they really dun have the least respect to start packing when we were there. Both mom and dad were there as well okay. Until i start scolding Kumar saying "dont you guys know what is cleanliness? For god's sake, im a guest yet im doing house chores for you all. im breathing in ashes and what ants will start building their nest if you guys just leave whatever food you eat all around everywhere???!?!?!?!" honestly..? i was SERIOUSLY dam PISSED OFF.

*sigh* just as i was saying everything was as sweet as it seems, things start crumbling down again. It's such a burden to carry responsibilities. But i guess that's why they say with great responsibilities, comes great price. I totally agree.

Tomorrow's the competition and im in no mood. I dunno why. im nt even prepared. Gahh. Im jus affected by people's every little minor actions u know? with jie not being around and all.. it jus feels so.. empty?

But you know what? life is like that. you cant always have things going your way. one thing i learnt from these pass years is that.. sometimes.. you jus gotta learn to let things go in order to make yourself feel happier and carefree. really!!! as my principle in "life is that "life is never a bed full of roses..." so yah! hmm. im gonna go now! till then. ciaos!