Hmm. today's gonna be a long blog. with lots of pictures. its becuz.. im layzee to separate the posts... so imma jus chunk it all into one. xD

The past few weeks was okay. at least i had all these events going on to help take my mind off... thanks darlings. i really appreciate you all for asking me out.. making me laugh.. and really stop thinking about those unwanted thoughts..

So yeh. went out with jiji and yuan on Saturday. Our final meet up! cuz we all had different schedule and fyp team.. it was a little harder than expected to have an outing. But meh. at least we're in the same class for one day! how lucky is that!!!! :)

While we were out that day.. we bought the same top together from Cotton On. and wore it today for jason's class. it was farnie. LOL. jason even called us the "Wonder Girls" and asked us to dance the "nobody" dance.... so Zzzz. but it was farnie. cant stop laughing the entire day when we jus stare at each other and noticing that we're actually wearing the same top. ROFL. xD







jiji's handmade cheesecake! with LOVE!




















OH OH! and we took neoprints on Sat... it was so farnie... we cant stop laughing.. becuz of those farnie pictures we inserted during the editing.. but it was really fun.. we watch two moovees! Cloudy and the meatballs.. and Surrogates. And guess what! both moovees we were late! and missed the starting!! it's always like this! the last round we watched Bride Wars.. it was the same thing! we always ALWAYS miss the opening! LOL.. ;d

Surrogate was cool. so it's a thumbs up from me. but Cloudy and the meatballs.. it was so-so. Aint that impressive but jus a little farnie. So yeh. then went shopping after that... and kept walking.. and walking....









After all the walking.. we were tired and exhausted. x_X so we rested at some walkway.. and jus decided to chilllllll outtttttt... LOL.































mehh. they tried to squeeze myface!!























mickey mouse ears!



i look like some star doing some endorsement advertisement. rofl.







she was aiming at my chest all this while!!!!











omg. greedeeeeeee pigs!



LOL. i love this pic! xD









Went out with sumzy.nic.vanessa.chelsea the other night. finally we all get to meet up. rather than jus the few of us.. guess its all hard since again. time schedule is a major factor. But i think it was nice to have a gathering once in awhile. but not always. meh. they always head down the expensive places. -.- but yeh. it was fun.

We were at coffee club in town for dinner.. then they decided to head down to Timbre.. thinking to chill and drink. but rofl. some kinda mistake.. they drove the wrong way and nic took the wrong turn. LOL. so in the end, we headed down to Dampsey instead... P.S. cafe. the ambience was nice. quiet.. soothing. i love the digestive tea there though. really fragrant and nice. didnt even needed the sugar for the tea. natural was good enough. :) but the stuffs there. were double the price.... >_>















LOOK AT THE BIG CAKE! SINFULLLLL!!!!







nic's sleepy face. rofl.























van.chelsea.nic.sum.me.


Thanks babes. for all the companies. and the fun. and everything.. have been going out. so it was a distraction for me.. in a good way. :)

Have not seen mitch for 12 days now. and honestly, there were no news, no emails, nothing. it seems as if he has vanished into thin air. i cant imagine myself worrying, panicking here every moment, every minute, every hour. at this rate, any normal person will have a break down.

It wasnt easy.. but i do realise that i cant do much over here. i tried calling him, spamming him emails, even offline msges. but those arent gonna help. and im tired. tired of worrying. i feel.. i no longer have any tears to flow.. my tear glands have kinda dried up. but somewhere deep down... im jus slowly breaking apart. but for now, im still holding on. Until that day comes... no tears are gonna be released.

although mom told me to prepare for the worst, but idk why. i jus have this ultimate confidence that he wont jus leave like this. Not without any explanation, any goodbyes. Thats jus not the mitch i know. Something must have happened. But i jus have no idea what exactly is going on. If it's smth major, i already told mom then i would fly over and she agreed to fly over with me. But i just need to know WHERE IS HE NOW. its jus that simple. but yet. i wasnt able to get any answer.

Is it really all fated? At the time when things were jus starting to look good, the whole world crumbles down again. I know and im certain i love him. i really do. Those months, days, hours, minutes spent together wasnt for nothing. We had sparkles. we had.. chemistry. we had.. laughter.

I never believed in online love. well. not exactly really. but idk why, the trust i have in him is so strong till it overcome all doubts. and the things he says.. he does.. are just so assuring that he loves me as well. but again. whats happening now.....

everything is jus falling apart. will he ever reappear? if this time my heart gets broken.. idk if im ever able to stand up again. as a matter of fact. if i do break down.. that day... will be the day i need companion the most.. i will jus need to cry.. and let it all flow out.. all my tears...

till then.. im hoping everyday.. that he is fine.. he is safe. it doesnt matter if we dont have an ending. at least i know nothing happened to him. thats what i really care about now....

and its.. 61 more days.