Went to Sentosa with DO RE MI and SO. lol. but sadly, there was no sun that day, it was just casual cloudy day. weirdly, i still got sun burnt on my face.. i've no idea why >_>

But it was farnie. We were all late that morning and we started to msg each other that we were going to be late.. lolol. after a lil shopping then we headed to sentosa.. we walked for some time trying to locate where the toilet was.. then we realised we had overshot where the ladies were located. HAHAHAHA. we had to walk back.. -_-







































it's been 50 + days. Im no longer sure what i feel anymore. Maybe im suppressing. feeling numb.. perhaps its cuz i dont wanna feel any lost.. nor pain. I know i should've given up. I thought so too..


But everytime when im alone, those memories come flashing past my brain.. and each time, all the things he spoke to me about.. kept repeating in my head. This is when my heart was stabbed like a million times. It was painful. Each time, i had tears in my eyes.

i ought to give it up entirely. i know. but .. i cant. even the presents that were meant for him. not sure what to do with it. throw it? i just wanted to leave it alone. I dont wanna touch it anymore....

I really no longer believe in love anymore. at least not for now. I just wanna be alone. im jus so tired of everything, i really do just wanna shut myself out from this world.. why did it had so painful? why did i ever knew him at the first place?

Questions i kept asking myself. in the end, it came to a conclusion. Why did i had to be naive to believe everything he said? Why did i fell for him? Why was i that dumb? i am.... dumbfounded by my own questions.

Life is crumbling down. Everything sucks. Everything is falling to the bottom of the pit. I really dont wanna care about anything anymore. i feel irritated and agitated by so many things. argh! argh! argh!!!!!! sometimes i wish i could just be a follower, maybe my life would be better. WHAT AN IDIOT!

blogs should be happy, but i know ever since his disappearance.. my wound has yet to heal and recover. So i think i'll just post up random movie reviews that i've watched...