The last time u'll ever see his pic appear. This time it's really over since the wedding was the final call. My heart was shattered and broken fully that night. Drank alot as i wanted to numb that pain, numb those feelings. I was... torn.

each time i recall the moment we spent before, my heart cant breathe, it's so painful. But again, it has reached a point where one has to learn to let go and move on. I was in denial, thinking that he would return to me but i know everything was nothing more than a simple lie..

No matter how hard i try to pretend to be happy infront of others, i can never lie to myself on how much it hurts to mention him, remember him and seeing things that would remind me of him. I am never gonna be okay. This wound will always be healing but it will be put behind...




I do miss him and still love him as we did had something going on. It was sweet, but again was it ever real? that's an answer i know i'll never know. but it doesnt matter anymore. :)




Time to dispose all his stuff, his photos, his letters, cards and present. maybe i should take a pic before i discard them ;d

So! it was kor kor's wedding last night! aw. was really tired though due to the hectic schedule of fyp. had to wake up early almost everyday! but it's cuz the submission dateline's really near and we are still way behind schedule. I seriously hope that we'll pull through this fyp...

When aunts and uncles asked about my so called 'bf', i almost broke into tears and my heart was in a stage where as if it was stabbed a million times. i hold back my tears and walked away.. from there, i know i was foolish and dumb enough to have believed his lies...

Then again, had to prepare pretty early because i had to doll mommy and myself up! HAHA! gotta look pretty! and since my fav sister wasnt around, i had to be the make up artist ... ~_~
The wedding location was rather secluded.. 1 rochester park.. -_- but it was a nice place, had good ambience. More like a sacred garden atmosphere with the lightings, etc. OH YES! the dessert there was YUMMYYY. Aunt Yuki and i were drooling over that chocolate mousse! we had 4 each! rofl! xD

Grandpa was really happy and drank alot that night..









cheers ;o



farnie cousins and aunty!



my fav aunt yuki! and my fav shot!



the bride and groom























Have been lunia-ing for the past few months.. But each time after i log, i feel a stab into my heart. cuz it has alot of memories. But im staying for the sake of the guild. However, it is time to stop and enter into hibernation period as i think i need some personal time for my own stuff. i cant be layzee anymore!! (>.<) gonna graduate soon!!

I wanna learn so many things but yet there's so lil time! I wanna master japanese too though, then i'm able to speak to aunty yuki! xD she says it'll be easier for her to communicate too! haha!

so yeah, it'll be fun i guess. Hmm. 21st birthday's coming. No plans yet, neither any from friends =/ but it doesnt really matter. From these, i will then be able to see who's real and who isnt.

Friends come and go, only true ones will take the effort to stay. i'm jus happy i've still got jiji, yuan, human bun and myself! it's crayzee when we get together. Haha. Not to mention, this semester, i've made a few good friends! ;)

I think im still used to being alone.. already gotten used to it! HAHA! i'm weird! i know! ;d