Another month passed. Here i am blogging once again. It's weird how time fly when you least expect it. Never thought i'll find someone. not since "him". But here i am, attached and happy? i hope. For one im sure of.. it's that he loves me more than i do..

Though im not certain what this road will lead to, but im holding reservations and keeping an open mind. perhaps... im just afraid to be hurt again. Im not certain how my feelings are along the way but i do know that this relationship is different. In a good or bad way, im not sure..

Often i wonder if im ever fit to be in a relationship? you'll think of the person everyday, misses him so much that u just cant wait to see his text messages, or hear his voice... but im not sure if i do feel that everyday. so is what we experience real? or is it pure infatuation? im starting to doubt and question myself each day. Im holding on because i really dont wanna hurt him and i wanna try to see if it works out for us...

in any case, christmas is coming once again, and with it, comes my birthday as well. Aint sure hw i plan to celebrate it.. though im dying to go on a short trip, work kinda restricts me to. :( so i guess it's just another yr with a simple dinner? Hm. im happy that i've lost weight btw, was able to fit in some of the clothes i couldnt wear previously.. and i pampered myself by buying an iphone4! haha. though it cost a bomb but i suppose it was a good investment. not sure what i wanna get this yr.. DSLR seems too common. but it'll be nice to have one, however, it's not a necessity! haha!





I really like the picture below alot because it seems so natural and smiley. The innocence of the photo is brought out so gently, the smile is warm and silly. It's one of my favs! hehe. so imma post it here!





Being in a relationship has made me realised that there are a lot of commitments i never expected, a lot of effort, and definitely time management and discipline were needed in order to strike a balance between all aspects ... bf, family, work and friends. It's not easy for sure, until now, im still struggling and it sucks.

Life's a bitch but at times they are can be such a cherry! I don't deny i still miss "Mr H" but i guess the past is something we'll all have to let go of eventually. Sometimes i wonder if we never broke up, would we still be together, would i have been happier? Haha.

Now that im with Nicky, i prolly shld stick my head into it, but im sry. I guess the saying "it's better to love a man who loves you more than you love him" it's not that perfect afterall. Can those love take away the hurt we once experienced? Can it replace the "feelings" we once had with our previous love? it's all nothing but question marks. lol.

Perhaps that's why humans always love the two words.. "if only" or "what if" because with it, we will be able to imagine things we never experience...