im proud that i did something courages today. at the same time, i feel like a total idiot. :[

i got the answer from him.. it was what i expected. but i guess i couldnt torment myself anymore and i ended this friendship. my heart was stabbed a million times when i said "i guess this is goodbye then." after he sent me home.

However, im glad that it has finally came to an end. it seems all i was waiting for was just an answer to put a full stop to it. But after placing the dot..my heart is filled with pain. I will never see him again. Does it mean i will open my heart to others..?

It aches. I know im gonna miss his laughter, his smile, and his lame theories about everything. but tian xia wu bu zhi yan xi. All happiness reaches an end eventually.

for now.. i've moved on. the pain.. will fade.