Just as i thought everything was going smoothly.. accordingly.. the world just collapsed on me. Devasted here i am feeling low.. moo dee and emotional-less.

Yesterday and today had made so much changes in my life.. everything for a split second just changed. Poof! it's never the same as before...

Yesterday... i finally knew he's attached to her. My heart.. shattered. But again.. i should never have fallen for anyone. Wth is wrong with me? It's always like a curse that im always the one ending up being hurt. Be it onesided or both sided. It's ALWAYS ALWAYS the case. lesson learnt. never again. im scared. tears almost fell out from my eye during lesson as i couldnt control it. EMO. perhaps she was slim.. tall and all. i lost to that. :"(

and worst.. he had to hold her in his arms when i was looking.. DUDE~ i was about to burst into tears everytime that flashes through my mind.

That was not all. Today. major news. Mom tendered her resignation letter. She couldnt take it as she was very stress with her current job scope and she couldnt cope with it. She broke into tears. I was lil worried but in the end i really heartache for her. I couldnt bear to see mom in tears. So now sis is holding the family. Okay. i need to get a job. seriously. any job that's able to feed myself for every month.

What's going on.. why is everything falling apart at this very moment??? i feel like crying. but i dunno why i cant? cuz i feel i should always put a strong front in the eyes of everyone? Im vulnerable. i need a shoulder. But there's none to spare... im broken.. deeply.

had field trip the other day.. and below are the hornies...