FYP's deadline is coming up in about 3 weeks time. Im worried becuz we're way behind schedule. And apparently. i've got piles of work to do. x_X not to mention other modules as well. Directing and Performance, studio production and CME. jeez. i wish i could split myself into more than just 'one'.


But however, im hoping i could squeeze out my weekends to finish the job. even if it means to burn midnight oil. cuz next week.. u know im not available. for special reasons. D: and hmm. im glad that my diet ishh a success! lost weight! but still. baby fats are there! but at least slimmed down? D:


this weekend? JEEZ. like so packed up! not to mention party invitation on sunday night? D: Aerin's anniversay and have been called down! x_X sat is definitely out since erm. planning to do stuff at home. hoping it'll be rushed out before he's here. D:


sometimes u ever wonder how life is full of surprises eh? though we know that sentence is a cliche but at certain point u just cant help wondering how it applies to you? o.O well to me.. it has indeed surprised me. I've never thought of entering such a distant r/s? not even when ryan wanted the last time. I rejected as i felt it was impossible to maintain. But somehow. this round it felt different. I felt.. determined. I want it to work. but at the same time im scared.


Does assurance help? idk. ._. and im tired to figure it out. it's mind and energy draining to keep thinking and thinking and thinking. in the end, there isnt really an answer to it, is there? Well, my philosophy in life is to live everyday to the fullest cuz you never know when it'll be your last day. Since happy or not happy, life still goes on, why not enjoy it while it lasts?


Bumpy rides indeed. but we cant confirm much till monday. And im looking forward to it though. hopefully it'll work out? Sometimes worry comes in too often. Maybe i shldnt be so uptight. If it's meant to be , it's meant to be.. leaving it to fate then? hmm.....


It's weird when you know u're falling in love but at the same time, worrying about stepping in because you dont wan yourself to be hurt by it again. x_X but i guess ever since i've met you.. i've changed. i dunno why. power of love does make people go crayzee..... indeed.....