our supposingly 3rd month anniversary.. jus ended.

but yet. there's nothing from you. not even a slightest anything.

sometimes i wish it din hurt this bad. but i knew if it din hurt, it would've meant that i jus din love him as much as i thought i did. so good or bad? cant figure?

I've asked opinions. forget or wait? becuz honestly, forgetting is painful. All the memories.. how can i jus wipe them out as easily as i thought i could...?

till now. i still cant figure why you ran away.
why?
I'd rather you tell me 'Lets end it'.
than jus leaving silently. this hurts more than anything else....

Deep down, i know...
you're never coming back and im learning to accept that.
painful, yeah, life still goes on.
the worst part?
i dont hate you, but i blame myself. i hate myself.
for falling for you in the first place....

As days pass, i hope im learning to let you go...
slowly and steadily..
pieces by pieces...
forgetting you.

im jus trying hard to fill my everyday life.
packing myself with schedule that makes me tired.
so i'll stop my heart
stop my mind.
stop everything....
from missing you.

Why is that sad look in your eyes
why are you crying
tell me now, tell me now.
Tell me, why u're feeling this way.
Is it your heart?
oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
making you cry
making you feel blue
is there anything that i can do?

Yes you can. jus make yourself appear back to me.