There goes the days of the burning and aching sensation once again.
wats going on in my mind? Why do people have memories? Ever wondered? I dunno. I sure wouldnt want them. If only there's a section whereby a button is being pressed and bad memories are being erased. If only.
As many attempts as one thought it would be easy to be strong and not be crumpled down easily. it's easier to have it said than done. agree? i dunno wth am i saying!! grrr. i jus wish.. i had the STM button memory. Saw my chai tou that day when i was at the moo vees. Then decided to ask her hw long she took to forget huimin.. she took 5 yrs.. hmm. i wonder if im gonna take that long as well? >.<
she told me to stay away cuz she's afraid im gonna get myself hurt in the end. I tried.. holding back.. not thinking of anything that lingers back memories. But u know what.. it's jus difficult. Temptations are there tellin me to drop him a text.. even jus to say a greeting. i typed and it ended up being "deleted". angel and devil fighting. *BANG* no party wins.
why do ppl even fall in love in the first place? is love really bitter sweet chocolate? i guess im never gonna taste it. it's jus so hard to believe and faith in the word love anymore. If there happens to be anyone courting after me.. i doubt i'll want any chances of myself being hurt by anyone anymore. cuz it's painful for the broken hearted to heal. aye. life's never the same for me again. am i being strong on the front side in the sight of others? im still figuring out. All i know there is .. is that.. my heart's no longer liking the feeling of crying anymore tears...
