gotten news about him finally. he is safe. and fine.
guess thats what i wanted to hear most. and i got it.

though it hurts to know but its better than not knowing.

gonna give myself till end of this month. if he doesnt appear by then. my decision is to let go completely. though i'll be curious to know why he did that but im sure that will be question where i know i'll never have an answer. instead, i will only have guesses.

till then. im jus gonna fill myself with activities. now. i jus wanna tan. ._.
dont ask me what happens if he return cuz idk what am i gonna do either.
for now. im lost. but im in hope. complicated eh? yeh. i cant figure too.
my heart's in all directions......


我爱你，是一种折磨?
到了最后，你始终承担不起我们的承诺。。

你就这样。。狠狠地甩开我沉默的手。。彷佛就剧终。
深呼吸一分钟， 原来泪。。也会痛。
倒流心中，怎么麻醉也没用 。

爱不爱。。都痛。
到了最后， 你选择了自由。
我们就听着分开的借口吧。。

15 days to end of october.
15 days to end of waiting.