when you feel pain, does it mean those feelings were actually true becuz you could actually feel them?

i can no longer feel what i have for you.
im wounded.
im sad.
im hurt.
im everything except anger.

thanks for all the companions. the past few weeks really was hectic. especially with fyp. time jus flies. it was a good distraction i guess. but i guess when i got back some time to myself, eventually those thoughts jus come flying back. i really wish i have a person to lay back on.

i wanna cry, but my mind is controlling my tears. i dont want to tear for him. thats the last thing i wanna do. but it hurts me more than what i ever expected. i never knew i'd miss him so much till my mind cant stop flashing those images and moments we once share. that was when.. my heart.. was torn into pieces. literally. i felt.... pain.

i wanna start anew. i wanna forget u. i really do. but it was harder than i thought. i tried to erase u out of my head, but each time, i jus realised i miss you more and more.

Going to perm my hair. i hope that will give me a fresh new start. wanted to get a tattoo to feel the pain and that means everything its over. but jie suggested i shld wait till im officially 21... since tattoo is something i cant remove it once i have it on.. but i need to get my life back. im still holding back. my hearts been torn and shattered but the pain and hurt is still there.

should i ever feel love again? im trying to control my heart now. i dont wan to fall so easily anymore. i know saying is easier than doing but i really am scared. being in the same class as mad feesh made me wanna fall back on him but i know i cant cuz im jus looking for someone to hold on to.. i wanna be 'me', i wanna be the strong girl. i'll rely on no one except myself.

i've been telling myself to be strong. this healing path is gonna take much longer than any that i've been through. i know it deep down this wound will never heal and its gonna need a hell out of time to make me put this r/s down. i really loved him... i really did.. alot.

Baby, it just took one hit of you
and now im addicted
you never know what's missing
till you get everything you needed

it feels like nobody ever knew me till you knew me
it feels like nobody ever loved me till you loved me
nobody.. nobody..
until you.

we had once beautiful memories. but its time to let it go. how long will it take for me to really ease this pain, i'll never know. but im trying really hard.

i thank and love all who have been standing by me for these past few weeks. it have been really tough. thanks for all the companion. i appreciate everything...