countless times i've cried for him, shed unwanted and heartaching tears.

it is a final full stop now.
For the first time ever since chinese new year, i can really smile with a relieved heart. Knowing... hey. i've really put down this heavy burden.

I guess it was heart breaking for everyone who loves me to see how down i were for the past weeks. I barely spoke at home and my mood was jus bloomy. I have been looking at his fb and each time i viewed it, each time i felt a knife piercing through my heart.

He is in a relationship with her now. The girl whom he used to call 'childish', and they are official. So the excuse of having 'no time for me' was nothing but a sheer made up to end our relationship in order to be with her. Oh man, so much for being deceived by a big fat liar.

Glad i took the advice of a good and trust worthy friend.. he has been nothing but a great listener. And i finally took the courage to delete that liar off my fb. It wasn't easy but if i dont, i knew i'll jus make more hearts break seeing me in such state. Like i said.. for the first time, i feel.. free.

Now im gonna stand back up on my feet and make the best use of my time. Make more friends, have more gf time with my good buddies, spending time with family, mugging my assignments and dating ppl whom i've promised a long time ago but never got to fulfil it! lastly... to exercise! haha. since i've decided to stop body combat for the next few months.. i've gotta be disciplined and start jogging on my own twice a week... otherwise.. im gonna be really layzee to start exercising again LOL.

Im thankful for that bunch of friends who never fails to be by side when im down. i remembered crying in class and they cried with me. I love them so much, and i wont make them feel pain again for seeing me so sad. I was their 'apple' and now im going to be back the same apple i was before meeting 'him'.

This post will be a fresh start for me. I will not turn back and look anymore. becuz that brings me nothing but sad and heartaching memories. i'm done crying.

I will be that sunshine in everyone's eyes again.